packing packing packing. and more packing. after my busy errand-running session today is now my busy packing session. i don't have a good camera. and i have only four rolls of film. and i need ziplock bags. and my clothespins are too small. the plane flight is 11 hours?? that's strange. i'm gonna have to wash my own underwear. i don't think my mini shampoo/conditioner bottles are big enough. what if i get sick on the plane? will they get to go to windsor? i still can't find a phone card. catch-22 is due before i come back, and there's a long waiting list! ahhhhh too many things to think about.

i need to go back to packing.

i'm so tired.. sorry mr. blog machine, but i have to keep talking about cys becuz that's ALL i've been exposed to these past few days. really. too much cys is bad for shellie.

we had a concert today, and once again i messed up. why can't i play that stupid gershwin part!!! agh.... the thing i've always been able to do during rehearsals.. i mess up on that one little blurb. and it's xylophone too. >_< wahhhhhhhhhhh.....

castanets are fun.

this blog thing is really stopping me from writing in my diary. cuz i feel like i've said everything i needed to say in my blog. but really, it's not true! i have so much more interesting things to write about in my diary that i can't write in here.. and i'd rather have it written down in a little book that's actually physically a diary. not typing words on some website that you can just delete any time. or that anyone can read. this thing is so... i dunno. internet is very volatile. i feel like my blog can disappear anytime. but maybe i'm just being paranoid again. james asked me today why didn't i just keep a diary. i told him i do. but i realized i haven't been writing much in it lately. all becuz of you, stupid mr. blog machine!!!! you've gotten my thoughts out, but only the top 10% surface. ahh!!!!

hehe.. ear muffs.. handles? i don't get it. and what was that thing the percussionists were joking about? brownies? give brownies?? i still don't understand. what does it mean?

i have a HUGE to-do list for tomorrow. deanza bank longs library jaclyn's jocie's.... anything else i'm missing? ahh.... lots of tour preparations. that's ALL i've been doing!!

i'm a cys geek!

hahahha... ah i crack myself up. ok so big busy day tomorrow. good night mr. blog machine!!

sooooo much cys lately! i think i'll go crazy w/ all the amount of time i've been spending in cys. but now that we got duc, and artie is here all the time, things are more under control.

i made a big big decision today. to me, it's really really important, everytime i make these decisions about music. i have decided to start taking percussion lessons when i get back from europe. yes!! finally. real, professional lessons on real instruments! like timpani xylophone vibraphone snare drum everything!! i'll finally know what i'm doing. ahh... i hope artie is a good teacher. he's very strict. and very tight on the punctuality thing. well i can understand why being on time is even more critical for us percussionists, but still. it makes me all uppity.

very tired... more cys tomorrow! ahhhhh.... and a lonnnng to-do list. *shelley pouts*

ahh!! i keep getting yelled at during CYS rehearsals. ok not yelled at exactly, but i don't know why mr. eylar is so annoyed at me. actually he's annoyed at the entire section... actually he's annoyed at the entire ORCHESTRA if you think about it. but i guess it's my fault for completely forgetting that we had to meet at 6:00. i've been quite spacey lately. must be all the sleep i'm getting.

i don't know why i'm not really looking forward to this france thing. it sounds like more work than fun... which would make sense anyway because we're going not for fun, but to play music. well isn't playing music supposed to be fun?? i found that some of my techniques have been degressing... >_< what to do? i can't take lessons... or can i? *sigh* should i even stay in cys next year? i'd like to, so i'd have good music going on in my life... but i sometimes feel like i dont' really belong there. eh.

what else? oh oh! my money woes solved! my mom gave me money AND my reimbursement check came today!! yay!!!!! finallly, i have gas money!

someone is beginning to hassle me. it's quite disturbing cuz i have to see him a lot. oy. more about this in my diary. >_<

hmm... the disaster is somewhat resolved now. i can't believe i completely forgot about what happend last year in feb. but then again... i remember everything about what happened exactly this time last year. :-(

tomorrow is graduation... why does there have to be such a thing as graduation? why do we have to say goodbye to more seniors every year we're here? and then when we leave, we have even more people to say goodbye to.. aiya.. this world is just not nice.

i'm confused about templates.

wow! my first blog entry...

i really hope creating this blog won't detract from my diary-writing sessions. i really do think my diary entries will be 500% more insightful, better organized, and MUCH more worth reading. but oh well... only two ppl have read my diary entry so far, but anyone can read this. so i guess there IS some good to this.

i'm new to this, so i have yet to discover to what degree of secrecy i'm going to allow myself on this blog. what do you call this btw? today i mentioned to rosemary about blog machines, and she laughed at me and said "it's not called a blog machine!" haha.. well what IS it then? it's a computer, so it's a machine, and it's supposedly called a "blog," hence the name blog machine!! >_< aiya...

i'm beginning to understand why people like writing blogs. since you're typing it, it doesn't take that much time to get your ideas out, so it's easier to express yourself i guess. but there are many downsides to this. one, they're much less developed. two, you'll write too much blab that isn't worth the time reading, you or anyone else. and three, you can't just jot it down when you want, you have to turn on the computer. oh and if you stop writing, won't you feel a bit guilty? i know i will.. which is why my diary is still my baby~ hehe..

ok.. mr. blog, if i decide that you are reliable enough, i will tell you about my REAL troubles. as of now, maybe i should change my template to fruits.