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i dunno how i got rinoa.. but heh oh well.



You're the girl no game can go without. You get
the guy, the glory, and the most hate. Sorry
to say you're usually hated by both male and
females alike. Maybe its because you're just
so... wimpy. Try doing something for yourself
for a change and stop whining... its
annoying.



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in the morning i went to jaclyn's house to send her away.. alex told me to meet him at q-cup's, to get her some "asian food" before she has to go off to germany without any pearl milk tea places.. she gave me lots of things to give to other people and i gave her some things too. my going-away present for her was a little jar (yes i always do the jar) filled with little strips of paper that she can open up and read whenever she's bored or missing home. i call it "shellie's complete guide to happiness in germany." hehe j/k.. i got the idea after reading life's little instruction book in leadership class, and i figured i'd make my own version... she seemed to like it. i'm glad. :)

i've always hated goodbyes, but then again, i've always been prepared for them.. so that when the time comes to really say goodbye, i won't be a teary snotty fussy mess. the thing that scares me the most is the possibility of never seeing her again.. if i stay here for college, i'll most likely be able to see her when she comes back. but what if i stay in taiwan for four years?

but that's ok.. all good things must end. like the chinese saying, tian xia mei you bu san de yan huei. i must say though, we've had lots of friends had to go away for whatever reason, temporarily or permanently, but this one, THIS ONE is the one that deeply impacted me. i have a few close friends, and i love them all very much (you know who you are!), but when i think of jaclyn, all these memories flood back and i just couldn't bear to accept the fact that THIS friend of mine is not going to be in my life much anymore. when she said "i'll be there for you," she really meant it. she was also the ONLY one i cried to after the break-up (one of the saddest events in my high school life, in retrospection, stupid kafung). she read and summarized long passages to me when i was too tired to read them myself.. she spoke up in the middle of those dreadful silences during a lit h poem presentation. she gave me 15-minute lectures before tests when i was sick the entire week before. she gave the BEST driving directions and wasn't condescending (grrrr alex and jesse!). she taught me german greetings and synthetic division (the non confusing way). and without her, i probably would never have been able to memorize the ten steps of a muscle contraction. (myosin wha?)

most of all, she taught me to "stop feeling sorry for yourself."

good advice. good times. i know she'll wow those germans. ^_^

goodbye jaclyn.

heard from three more colleges today.

rejected: Claremont Pomona
in: NYU, Claremont Harvey Mudd

eh it was kinda expected that i'd get rejected from pomona college, but i was glad to get into harvey mudd. apparently my "geek magnet" theory is still working out... being a girl rocks. :D oh and let's cross out fingers for the OTHER college i applied to in NY teehee.

Went back home again
This sucks, gotta pack up and leave again
Say goodbye to all my friends
Can't say when I'll be there again
Its time now, I turn around
Turn my back on everything
Turn my back on everything

Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile

Start back at this life
Stretch myself back into the light
I'm waking up to say I've tried
Instead of waking up to another TV Guide
Its time now, I turn around
Turn and walk on this crazy ground

I'm a mobile
Hanging from the ceiling
Life's a mobile
Spinning 'round with mixed feelings
Crazy and wild
Sometimes I wanna scream out loud

. avril lavigne . mobile .

i feel so stupid.

why am i always in my own perfect little world, oblivious to what's happening around me until something hits me and smashes me to pieces...

even though i will most likely not go to these schools anyway, i've decided to put the current college acceptance status info on my blog, cuz a lotta decisions have come out already..

unless otherwise indicated, all majors applied to are undeclared.

IN:
UCLA
UCSD
UCI
UCD
UCB - eecs

REJECTED!
Stanford (wahhhhhh i'm still not over it)

WAITING:
harvard
nyu
upenn - huntsman program (wharton + college)
columbia!
claremont pomona
claremont harvey mudd
claremont mckenna (incomplete app! how did that happen?!)
ching hua u.
cheng chi u.
NTU - intl. business

that's it for now!

seeing how EVERYONE seems to be doing surveys about themselves lately, i will be a conformist and go with the flow. :D teehee! no actually i'm just procrastinating, as usual, so here's a pretty cool survey in my opinion.

SEVEN DEADLY SINS

ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? "the system" of passing clubs (teehee angela)
2. What is your weapon of choice? the "innocent" puppy face.. works everytime!!
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? all the time!
4. How about of the same sex? i think i use what i call the poking technique
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? my dad -_-;;
6. What is your pet peeve? when people leave the toilet seat UP and i have to TOUCH the seat with my fingers to put it back down.. ugh
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? judging from the past.... er.. YES i hold grudges sometimes

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? read Bible
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? that depends on my sleep cycle. but i have woken up at random times like 5 PM before..
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: er i think jaclyn and rosemary and thomas
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? i was too tired to wake up.. :(
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? yeah that weird one about putting a suction cup on your boob to make it bigger (no i didn't buy it)
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? HAH?!
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? did i HEAR my alarm clock today? NOOOO

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? pudding milk tea.. you can get it in taiwan for less than a buck!!
2. Vegetarians: Vegan or no? but wouldn't that mean that i can't eat meat....?! no way haha
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? although i do agree that alcohol is overrated, i think the most i've drank outside of my home is two glasses of sex on the beach ^^;;
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? i need to GAIN weight hello
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? yes. see previous question.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? salty and spicy. MSG baby~
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? no but i know who has!! (*ahem* biscuit dog??)

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? a lot. i like babies. :P
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? *wink* oh yeah alex...
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yes but it's not what you think! we were on the subject!
4. Have you "done it"? i like the way this question tries to sound unoffensive and obscure. but no.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? back of neck
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? Nope.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? Nope.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? none. i have a check card.
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? uhhh... too many to name..
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? invest it in something.. will consult my dad for investment info!
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? if i had to choose ONE, mm.... famous. cuz you can get money from fame, but harder to get fame from money. :D
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? depends on what you mean by boring jobs. but i'd probably take it and entertain myself with the "megabucks" i'd get with the job. so i'd get both! haha
6. Have you ever stolen anything? does taking a whole bunchful of napkins count?
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? grrrrRRRR at kafung and charlton

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? some memorable performances i guess
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? i honestly don't know..
3. What one thing would you like to accomplish in your life? this is abstract and ambiguous yet surprisingly simple: true happiness
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? depends on the competition..
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? probably
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yes. *hides in shame*
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? i finished that whole big burger! even though everyone was saying, "oh we're gonna be here a while...."

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? hmm... maybe angela's car with the pretty lights! ;-)
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? what's that?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? me
4. Have you ever been cheated on? whoa controversial question there
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? YES
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? charisma
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? not really

Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? pride or greed. becuz if you can handle it well and turn it into something productive, you will get very far in life.


Seven Heavenly Virtues

FAITH
1. What religion do you follow? *sigh* i would say Christianity but i dunno
2. What religion were you raised as? none
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? both.
4. Do you believe in magic? magic TRICKS yes
5. What was the last promise you broke? to go to breakfast w/ someone :(
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? *nod*
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? no

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? No, but I got things that I didn't even think of that were better.
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? like i said, true happiness (how i define it will change later of course)
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? yeah like college applications... *sniff* Stanford! why have you forsaken me!!!
4. Do you believe in Murphy's Law? some are funny.. yes
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? not yet
6. Do you gamble? If so, what game or activity? i don't really gamble. but i like challenging fobbish card games.
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? yes.. a long time ago.

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support? member-supported jazz stations!! hehe.. and i sponsored this lil kid in equador (sp?) before..
2. What causes have you given money or time to? oh. didn't see this question. see above. plus church.
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? yeah
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel-inherent worldwide charity group? eh i don't think so
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? i'm too afraid of them. and there's none where i live right now.
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? HAHA food?! yes... and you know who you are!
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? uh... money, car rides, homework help, the usual..

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of? loneliness
2. What did you do today that was really brave? i went very very near a rolly-polly :P
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why? does bill nye the science guy count?
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? depends
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? more courage
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? If so, when? If not, how do you avoid it? do speech competitions count? er.. sometimes.. i try to just pretend i'm the person i'm portraying and it kinda makes things better
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? most of the times a follower. but if i get annoyed enough and i think i know what i'm doing i might lead.

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? Were you chosen? no and no
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? haha i think i'd do more harm than good to my troop. hehe
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? don't know that much about the issue, but i don't think so.
4. Which should be guaranteed legal: Freedom of thought, speech, movement, belief/religion, right to privacy, right to self-determination in all matters that don't greatly effect the larger social context? don't we already have all that? on a global level, i guess if i had to choose one, it'd be freedom of religion.
5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? huh??
6. What was your favorite media circus trial? huh??
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? uh no.

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? ahh too many things.. internet, food, sleep, taking quizzies or surveys like this one, negative thoughts...
2. Do you collect anything? those pennies that you can mush and print things on.. i think i have more than 50 now!
3. Are you addicted to anything? *sings* i'm a dic.. i'm a dic.. i'm addicted to you!!!!
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan? no.........?
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? cash for small things, check card for big things. but i'm going broke. send money!!
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do: hmm... :( not writing in here
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? oh yeah. most definitely. to angela: the paranoia!

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know? you'd only think they're wise becuz they tell you things that you hadn't thought of but that you also agree with. so if you don't agree w/ them would you still think they're wise? basically i'm gonna avoid answering this question cuz i honestly don't know..
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? wha? vigil? wha?
3. Do you take advice when it's given? only if you tell me what i wanna hear! hehe j/k. yeah sometimes
4. What area are you wisest in? uhhh hehe the quality of online quizzies. and maybe observations on ppl when they don't know it.
5. Do you drive defensively? man i've gotten flipped off way too many times.. i think it's a bad sign. :-/
6. Have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage? Would you ever? ooh maybe vertical sex.. hehe j/k.. no and no.
7. What did you learn today? some rolly-pollies are purple and they like to hide under Charlton's pots.

And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue? Hope.


wow that was long.. and i'm not sleepy! strange.. i think i'll actually do some hw now. byebye!

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

listening to ella fitzgerald at 3:34 AM... i have two more journals left and am feeling quite contemplative. maybe this blog is getting a little bit TOO public, there are some things i feel that i cannot write in here anymore.

ah yes.. things are certainly becoming different.. faster and faster.......

trying in vain to hold onto some things, but they are slipping fast between my fingers.. like trying to hold a handful of dry sand at a beach. but i cannot dismiss it all as sand.. it must have more substance than that. volume one isn't over yet; i cannot close the book and let it collect dust on my shelf.. not yet.. not yet..

i hear soft, lazy brushes against the ride cymbal.. i must continue.

ahhhhh i think that the number of quizzies i take is directly proportional to the amount of hw i have.. becuz i take quizzies when i wanna procrastinate!! >_< too many quizzies! and i keep on finding new sites!!!

i like the girl's hair... ^_^



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shellie's oxymoronic lesson of the day:

expect the unexpected.

ahhh i'm sooo procrastinating!

Also known widely as the Fire Bird, the phoenix is a profound symbol of the circle of life. It has a life cycle of 500 to 600 ears and after that amount of time, it sets itself on fire and dies in the flames. Then after three days, it rises again from the ashes. It is a completely benign creature who lives in dew. It is said that the phoenix has a beautiful melidous song which grows ever more mournful as its life comes to an end. It is a symbol of the sun and immortality. The phoenix is a very worthwhile beast.

What mythical beast best represents you?Take the quiz!

I am ... to others... by Umi
To others, you are the one they look up to for you are near perfection but they didn't learn of your vulnerable side.

teehee :D




from american eagle

uh no i am NOT an intoxicated college student. -__-;;


STUDENTS DRINKING
You're a novelty sign. You like to joke around,
and most likely are one of the intoxicated
college students, this sign is talking about.
You're the life of the party, and when you're
around, everyone has a good laugh.


What's Your Sign?
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i've always known that my parents really want me to go back to taiwan for college, but i never knew that this was all decided for me, whether i like it or not.

today during dinner we were talking about plans for spring break. i told my dad that i'd want to visit some colleges that accepted me during break. immediately without even pausing to think about anything, he waved it off and said, "you don't need to visit any colleges, you're not going there anyway." i understand the whole asian respect your elders kinda thing, but i got irritated by that and said, "well then maybe i didn't have to apply to any schools in the u.s. then." my dad replied, "well didn't i tell you not to apply to any schools here?"

i can't believe it! so what about all the harder classes i had to take and all the activities and all the essay-writing and application fees and SAT prep classes?! i feel like i'm throwing my entire high school life away, like none of it mattered anyway, just because of the simple fact that my parents are the ones paying for my college education.

i couldn't stop thinking about all this, so i said "excuse me" (Chinese version, of course) and practically stormed out of the restaurant. then i felt like a loser as i stood in the dark corner outside, sobbing and shivering.. passers-by giving me strange looks.. all these images flashed into my head of the things i had to work for in the past few years.. like every college-conscious high schooler, working for that tiny fraction of a percent to get an A, forcing myself out of bed endless times for whatever reason.. he doesn't even care about what i did in these past four years, not like he was here most of the time anyway.. all he cares about is that he has this neat little plan that he assumes everyone will adhere to, that we will all live wherever he tells us to, go to school where he says, work where he says, and spend every moment living out HIS plan!

of course it's not like EVERYTHING i did in high school had to do with colleges, but as you all high schoolers out there know, so many pleasures had to be given up.. extra sleep, more time w/ friends and family, maybe quit lessons for a favorite instrument, attending stupid SAT prep classes and memorizing long lists of vocab words.. things like that... and to say that all those sacrifices were unnecessary.. that they didn't even make a DENT in my college-prep years.. that dreams of going to wharton or maybe attending classes at julliard or staying at de neve (new dorm at UCLA) or being able to come home during the breaks and seeing old friends, none of them will come true, NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY. i feel so... AGH! what's the word.. i feel like i've been out of the loop. for the past four years. like nothing i did ever mattered. if i had magical powers, i might as well let my dad live my life, let HIM go to taiwanese colleges, let HIM have to leave his friends for good, let HIM work so hard only to realize it was for nothing.

just wished... somebody filled me in on the plans for MY life? since when are all these things completely out of my own hands?!?!?!?!

note to self: explore fobbish counter site.

Imagination

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sitting here alone. thinking with my tissue box, closed my eyes, picturing what it will be like...

an empty house..
a disposable camera..
the phone rang once, but she doesn't hear it anymore
an empty green bench in the park.
who will be sitting in the passenger seat?
錯的時間，遇見對的人是一聲嘆息

time is running out.

ok i do not know how to communicate with a guy if i think i'm attracted to him. i just can't. i end up looking stupid and saying stupid things and other ppl around me just look at me weird and are prolly thinking, "what did you just say???" like i'd joke about something and then realize afterwards that what i said made no sense at all and it wasn't funny either and then i just feel stupid again. so after a while i just shrink back from talking to the guy cuz i'm so scared. haha and so the poor guy will prolly never know. isn't that wonderful. :D

對的時間，遇見對的人是一生幸福
對的時間，遇見錯的人是一場心傷
錯的時間，遇見錯的人是一段荒唐
錯的時間，遇見對的人是一聲嘆息

according to colorquiz.com, my actual problem is:

"The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility."

heh.. interesting.

i think i'm becoming too much of a slacker for my own good.. or maybe i just don't think the way i used to, and the old way of thinking maybe got me to work harder than i do now.

the previous blog post wasn't directed toward any one person so please don't be quick to make assumptions. i hate it when people devalue blog posts or anything i write by interpreting it to fit their own horribly developed thesis.

ok some people need to get it in their heads that it's our senior year and we don't have that much time left!!!! homework is important but it's not EVERYTHING! shouldn't senior year be the FUN year?! especially now that it's second semester? YEESH i'm so mad!

it's so funny cuz if you have a runny nose, and your snot dries up, it leaves your nosehair all stiff. ^^;; it's like nose-hair gel!

You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta nowhere to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek or more passionate embrace. super markets and work places are your favorite places to attack your loved one with all your love =p


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It's every day
I'm in this place
I feel this way
I feel the same

I need the truth
I need some grace
I need the path
To find my place
I need some truth
I need some grace
The part of you
That's part of me
We'll never die
We'll never leave

- sixpence none the richer - breathe your name -

oh yeah.. another piece of exciting news. i got into UCLA!!!!!!!!!!!!

so happy. :D

ok so last night after the dance i was really energetic and so i made a buncha new additions and had lotsa fun w/ them. hehe :D (yes dennis, sue me for being a "dynamic drive girl")

1. added comments! although i dunno how useful this is considering i already have a tagboard...
2. mouse over the pink swirly image. :P
3. now you don't have to scroll all they way down to the links section! just click links! (got this trick from looking at simon's blog code) ^^;;

more to come later. i want to change the stupid blurry thing when you mouse over links. cuz it's supposed to look blurry but it just looks like a big gray blob and it's kinda disgusting. so imma change it later. teeheeeeee having way too much fun w/ these things.

test to see if comment works. teehee

feels good to get some things off my chest.. man i didn't know i had been carrying all that BAGGAGE all this time..! i swear, sometimes you just get numb... you just get numb...

perhaps... my thinking that they didn't understand me just showed how much i didn't understand them at all....

after sleeping and blowing my nose occasionally for an entire TWO days, i am finally getting better. but now i am caught in a dilemma. i feel good enough to go the glow-in-the-dark dance, but then i'm afraid ms. hannigan will look at me weird (like this o.O) and wonder why i seem so healthy at the dance and yet i didn't go to school. oh and i'm still sniffling. so maybe i should bring a box of tissues like chrissy did!! haha.. (i'm not really gonna do that, in case you're wondering)

*sniffles*

and then
one day
i saw you gazing back at me
and nothing was ever the same again

gahhhhhhh i can't take it anymore!!! i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

agh i HATE dishonesty, but now i'm just being a hypocrite.

pissy mood.

haha "i'm too awesome to have any real faults?" hehehe funny quiz


You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


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Red/Green/Blue:
To you, the world is logical. Everything happens for a reason, life is scientific. You like to find solutions. I doubt you needed to take this quiz in order to realize this.


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AHHHH oh my gosh!! this email TOTALLY made my day. *a billion smiles* sorry i just have to show it off in here. hehehehehhe (in case you don't know, Leo Eylar is our conductor in CYS)

Dear Shelley,
Just wanted to let you know that I am TOTALLY proud of the way you played today, especially in the Respighi! FIRST-RATE! You produced a huge sound and tore into it like there was no tomorrow. My kind of timp playing! Really excellent job, I am extremely proud of you and your achievement. Hope you had a fun time! I'll really, REALLY miss you next year!!!! Take care and have a great week!
your pal,
LEO :)

P.S. Where DO you come up with these screen names????????

hehehhehe i'm so happy!

ok apparently the style tags aren't as complicated as i thought they would be. i just got intimidated by all that a.hover stuff. >_<

ah... *content smile*

i live a life of imitation.

that's all i'm gonna say about that.

cool thing that happened today: very successful CYS concert! apparently, i did such a good job on the timpani solos that one guy even described it as "ballsy." hahaha i took that as a compliment. :D shellie is happy.

my dad came back tonight. brought my pottery thing back.. hehe it looks a lot better than i thought it would.. i'm actually a little scared of what's going to happen now.. what he'll try to "get done and taken care of" in preparation for our potential move. *sigh*

gonna try to figure out how to merge the blogger and xanga codes so that the dates will come out as bold. anyone wanna teach me? ^_^

RuskieSpy: i like the links up
RuskieSpy: to go places
RuskieSpy: maybe put it on top
RuskieSpy: how would that look:-\
exuberantWaWa: haha
exuberantWaWa: i did
exuberantWaWa: and well
exuberantWaWa: that means that it would be the pink swirly thing
exuberantWaWa: and then the links (which are a lot)
exuberantWaWa: and THEN posts at like lower part of page
RuskieSpy: hahaha
exuberantWaWa: it was too much on the top
exuberantWaWa: oh believe me, i tried
RuskieSpy: but nobody reads the blog part of it neways
RuskieSpy: hahaha, j/p
exuberantWaWa: =-O!!!!!!
exuberantWaWa: *kicks alex repeatedly*

haha so if you're looking for links to other ppl's pages, which, according to alex, is the only thing my blog is good for (grrrr) then scroll down. :D

muahahahhaa i stole this template from xanga skins! seeeeee this is why blogspot is better than xanga, cuz to use this skin on xanga, you'd have to get premium! muahahhahahahahhaha

trying out some new templates. hehe :D

ah some parts of the lyrics i just don't understand, so i didn't include it. strange how i'm in just the mood to identify with some of this...

The world I love, the tears I drop, to be part of the wave can't stop,
Ever wonder if it's all for you.
The world I love, the trains I hop, to be part of the wave can't stop,
Come and tell me when it's time to.

Wait for me when I'm passing out, win or lose, just like you,
Far more shockin' than anything I ever knew, how about you.
Ten more reasons why I need somebody new, just like you,
Far more shockin' than anything I ever knew, right on cue.

Kick start the golden generator
Sweet talk but don't intimidate her
Can't stop the gods from engineering
Feel no need for any interfering
Your image in the dictionary
This life is more than ordinary
Can I get 2 maybe even 3 of these
Come from space
To teach you of the pliedes
Can't stop the spirits when they need you
This life is more than just a read thru

- red hot chili peppers - can't stop -

man i just realized that i've been feeling really, really bored. and it's not just a momentary boredom, but one that has lasted for about... a couple months now?

i gotta find something to do. something worthwhile. i always complained about being too busy and never getting to do what i want to do. and now, even though i still got a lotta stuff i have to do, i have a lot more free time cuz i slack off. i realize i don't know what is it that i wanted so much but never got to do.. am i a slave to my own ambitions? am i just destined to never have real fun? *sigh*

i'm so bored with my life..!

hahahha got this link from alex. pretty funny results! :P

I.
Priorities in your life:
pride
family
money
love
career

II.
You would describe your own personality as being simple-minded, loyal
You would describe your enemy's personality as being sneaky, likes to take advantage
You would describe your partner's personality as being moody, selfish
You would describe your own life as being wide, tranquil, deep
You interpret sex as being indulgence, rich

III.
You will always remember Ricky for the rest of your life.
You really love Kafung.
Your soul-mate is probably Thomas.
Christina will never forget you.
You consider Jaclyn as your real friend.

http://naucon.net/misc/tests/anim_colors.htm

call me sadistic, but sometimes if people stereotype against me, i take joy in purposely reinforcing that stereotype and secretly laughing at how wrong their conclusions become. hehehheh *evil cackle* :D

I'm Phoebe Buffay from Friends!

Take the Friends Quiz here.

created by stomps.

today feels like a "jazzy" day.

i was looking around my room, and all of a sudden it occured to me how much i've changed over the years.. since i came here. i remember in the very beginning, during dark and stormy nights, when me and my mom were the only ones in our two-story house, my mom used to say to me things like, "i think maybe we made the wrong decision to come here.. let's go back to taiwan." like all the other fobs, we'd complain about how we felt deaf and mute, becuz we couldn't understand or say anything, no matter how hard we concentrated on the strange, new and unfamiliar language.

but whenever she complained that we should move back, i said that would be like going off to fight a war and coming back defeated. i don't know why i compared our adjustment period to fighting a war at that time, but i just kept thinking that if i were to go back to taiwan permanently one day, it has to be as if i returned after a glorious victory.

a glorious victory..

to say that i achieved "victory" here in the little cupertino bubble would not only be arrogant but also ignorant. but somehow, i feel like if i had to move back to taiwan this very second, i would not feel like i'm going back in shame, as if i didn't manage to adjust. i'd feel like, look how much more i've seen and done, and now i'm back here, ready to see and do much more different things. i don't want to be like, hey look at me, i lived in two countries so i'm better than you. but i DO feel.. like i'm ready to take the next step. i've sort of "figured out" how to handle the life here, and now i want to go somewhere else and "figure out" another life.

if i were to go back to age 9, i would never, ever, ever imagine my life to be anything like it is now. i wouldn't believe the un-fobbish friends that i've made (well, sometimes... hehe). i wouldn't believe the kinds of english books i've read.. i wouldn't dare to imagine learning so much MUSIC. i wouldn't even think of running for any position in student government! i wouldn't possibly consider the kind of.. AMERICAN person i've become. that is why today is so strange. i look around me, and everything that's been happening and everyone i've been talking to.. just seems like a dream. like a dream come true, almost.. kinda like cinderella going to the ball (ok, bear with me how i compare myself with cinderella now, haha), because she was never supposed to be there, but she ended up there anyway, and now she can't believe her eyes.

but if everything goes well, that is, if i do get into NTU, then i must go back and become a different person all over again. this is normal, of course, because when you are in rome, you live the roman way (is that how the saying goes? i'm not sure..). would i miss cupertino and my friends here? OF COURSE! but.. if a person stayed stagnant, exactly where they are, because they fear that they will long for what has become so friendly and so familiar, then they will never get anywhere. literally. if i had never left my home in taiwan nine years ago, i wouldn't have met all of you guys right? (aw.... mushy moment)

so, with all this said, i would have to say that i have made up my mind. that is, if circumstances allow it. (obviously if i don't even get into the college i wouldn't go back there.)

but in the mean time, i still want to stay as american-almost-kinda-ex-fobbish as possible. :D

hiiii everyone! this is chrissssyyyy >:D muahahaha i have successfully hacked into shelley's blog system!!!!! *sinister grin*

how is it possible that me, charlton, and kafung managed to finish SEVEN McChicken's during yesterday's lunch?? still pondering that question... >_<

*hint* i only ate one. :D

oh my gosh i forgot to blog about my "near death" experience today..

so i was studying like a good girl, as always, in starbucks next to the safeway on stevens creek. and as i glanced up, in walked a middle-aged woman and i thought, "wow, she looks a lot like kafung's mom!" then behind her, i saw a half-balded man with a round face, and i was like, "and he looks like kafung's dad!" then i was like, "oh my gosh!!! it's his parents!!!!! ahhhhh"

but good thing they didn't see me and walked right past me, cuz i was sitting with my back to the door. coincidentally, i was reading crime and punishment. -__-;; so i became raskolnikov when he went *psycho* at the scene of the crime. should i rush into the bathroom? should i grab my stuff and get out of there? or should i go up to them and say hi and pretend like everythign's alright? the whole time my heart was going *thump*thump* really fast, especially with the caffeine.. finally i decided to bury my face in the book and straighten out my hair in case they DO see me, so they won't think i'm some mad woman (i don't know, they're scary).

it worked! they walked out and stood outdoors for a while, sipping their coffee. then i felt like a stalker cuz i kept lowering my book a little and turning my eyeballs toward their direction.. i even looked everywhere for their porsche, in case they parked somewhere close and noticed my car!!!

but alas, they left. and then i called kafung and yelled at him for not warning me.

it would have been REALLY ugly if they did see me.. and of all the starbucks in cupertino?! they go to MY starbucks. aish.

ugh. it's saturday night and i'm sitting in front of my computer blogging.

have you ever felt like your life is really, put bluntly, boring? i mean, it's times like this that make me think that i'm missing out on so much, and yet i don't do anything about it. i need to "expand my horizons." i wanna go out somewhere (not outside, but out into the world) and see something that i've never seen before or do something i've never done before.. or go to places i don't normally go to. get lost in a place and have utterly no idea where i'm gonna end up. be able to have some sort of an adventure and then come back and write all about it. or share it with people. i want to be put in a situation i can't handle. i want to feel.. hmm.. exhilirated? (sp?) or feel unsafe, for once. i wanna be able to forget about what's due the next day or what i have to read and be able to do something that will make a DENT in this billion-populated world. or speak a language i'm unfamiliar with. just wanna get out of my shell! (ironic name, shelley) wanna risk it all on something.. wanna "go press that dissonance" to break this monotony.

agh! *frustration*

<~ come to CYS concert! you will make shelley very happy. :D

KAFUNG KOO IS THE MOST INSENSITIVE JERK IN THE WHOLE WORLD FOR LAUGHING AT ME WHEN I CRIED AFTER "MY SASSY GIRL"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>:o times infinity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!