i've been having weird dreams about friends back in the states for several nights now. last night i dreamt about tyson, the night before chrissy, and some nights before i saw charlton and angela. maybe it just means i miss you guys. but i think there's more.. i feel like i'm losing some part of myself slowly, and before i know it, i'd turn my head and find that part of myself completely disappeared. just vanished into thin air. and it makes me so scared to think this way, but there's nothing i can do to make things better.
i'm stuck in one place and not going anywhere. and i'm all alone.
