What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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10.30.2002
10.29.2002
there once was a girl. people thought she had everything. she has so much going for her, they said. her future is bright, sky is the limit. until one day, the girl who had everything started losing everything...
at first the damage was minimal. her music teachers urged her, "shelley shelley, i think you should take up percussion lessons again." but shelley was too busy for non-mandatory activities such as percussion lessons, so she let go her passion. or what came closest to her passion, at least.
then her friends tried calling her. "shelley shelley, let's go somewhere tomorrow!" but shelley was too busy for "chill" time. so she let go her friends.
her sister waited for her. "shelley shelley, when you're free, let me take you out to Miyaki!" but shelley was too busy for nice, long dinners. so she let go her sister.
sleepiness haunted her. "shelley shelley, lie down in your soft, warm bed, you're too tired..." but shelley stayed up. so she became sleep-deprived.
hunger called out to her. "shelley shelley, you need to eat something during the daytime to keep your sugar level up." but shelley rushed out the door and forgot about her meals. so she became even thinner.
her father was worried about her. "shelley shelley, you need to exercise, you're too weak!" but shelley was too busy for physical activities. so she ignored her father.
her mother was also worried about her. "shelley shelley, you seem kind of depressed lately, are you ok?" but shelley was too busy to share her troubles with her mom. so she ignored both her parents.
one day, when this girl who had everything finally lost everything, she died.
then, it was His turn. He, the Creator of heaven and earth, asked her, "shelley, have you made time for me?"
at first the damage was minimal. her music teachers urged her, "shelley shelley, i think you should take up percussion lessons again." but shelley was too busy for non-mandatory activities such as percussion lessons, so she let go her passion. or what came closest to her passion, at least.
then her friends tried calling her. "shelley shelley, let's go somewhere tomorrow!" but shelley was too busy for "chill" time. so she let go her friends.
her sister waited for her. "shelley shelley, when you're free, let me take you out to Miyaki!" but shelley was too busy for nice, long dinners. so she let go her sister.
sleepiness haunted her. "shelley shelley, lie down in your soft, warm bed, you're too tired..." but shelley stayed up. so she became sleep-deprived.
hunger called out to her. "shelley shelley, you need to eat something during the daytime to keep your sugar level up." but shelley rushed out the door and forgot about her meals. so she became even thinner.
her father was worried about her. "shelley shelley, you need to exercise, you're too weak!" but shelley was too busy for physical activities. so she ignored her father.
her mother was also worried about her. "shelley shelley, you seem kind of depressed lately, are you ok?" but shelley was too busy to share her troubles with her mom. so she ignored both her parents.
one day, when this girl who had everything finally lost everything, she died.
then, it was His turn. He, the Creator of heaven and earth, asked her, "shelley, have you made time for me?"
10.27.2002
so, after my ONE time of being late, we get this email...
"Unexcused absences or more than three excused absences may result in reassignment of parts, re-seating in the section, loss of principal status, or expulsion from the orchestra. Mr. Eyler is very concerned about tardiness or leaving early and Musician's Council is checking very carefully... Any unexcused late arrival will be considered an unexcused absence."
oy...
"Unexcused absences or more than three excused absences may result in reassignment of parts, re-seating in the section, loss of principal status, or expulsion from the orchestra. Mr. Eyler is very concerned about tardiness or leaving early and Musician's Council is checking very carefully... Any unexcused late arrival will be considered an unexcused absence."
oy...
10.26.2002
one more thing: writing about keats' poems actually had a significant effect on me... it sounds so simple, doesn't it? that you cannot have pain without pleasure, pleasure without pain. and to experience life fully you shouldn't try to avoid melancholy. sometimes, when i think that i should not be so emotionally involved because of some hurt, and i do pull back, i realize that life isn't necessarily better for me that way. i just regret my decision becuz even though it may mean less tears, it also means less smiles and more moments of this monotonous lifestyle i have right now.. speaking of monotonous lifestyle... is it good for any invididual when their schedule goes somewhat like this: get up, skip breakfast, school, skip lunch, work, eat dinner, work work work, go to sleep for 3 hours, and get up again? ok ok so i'm exaggerating, but sometimes i do feel like a robot with dulled facial expressions and minimal passion.
all work and no play makes shellie a dull - erhm - girl. >_<
all work and no play makes shellie a dull - erhm - girl. >_<
yes i'm very tired right now.. but i feel like blogging
VERY hectic day today. for those of you w/ stebbins, how was your lit papers? i heard that at around 2:55 there were a whole bunch of people running toward her classroom with papers in their hands! hehehe i can just imagine the picture..
slept for a few hours, jocelyn even came to my house to try to wake me up. first she called five times. then my mom saw her at our door and let her in and she woke me up to tell me about band hours and dress. how nice!!! ^_^ so i got to sleep for a few hours...
went to homecoming, performed, then stayed for dance. then stayed for clean-up. then angela gave me a ride home becuz i didn't drive to school becuz i didn't have my license becuz i didn't have my wallet. ah, yes.. that's what made today so interesting... i REALLY thought i lost my wallet this time.. and what's worse was that i had a very big hunch that someone TOOK it - i didn't just misplace it. i had to play vibraphone during the rally, so i dumped my backpack on the floor in some corner of the gym. BIG MISTAKE! by the time the rally ended, i picked up my backpack, which was half open, and tried to look for the rest of my things scattered about the gym floor while sophomores pushed their way around me. ahhh... i didn't realize i had lost my wallet until i had to drive to school to turn in my paper. then... frantic-ness (?) struck! so yes, i posted an away message on aim to see if anyone knew the whereabouts of my wallet.
my mom got SO MAD at me.. and she thought i didn't care.. of course i cared! the first thing that ran through my mind was cash. i knew i didn't have a lotta money in there, so i didn't worry. then, check card. i didn't want to freeze my account until i was SURE my wallet was lost. then, driver's license. that was tricky, cuz my mom won't let me drive w/o a license, which makes sense, but makes everything very very troublesome. it's a good thing i don't keep stuff w/ sentimental value in my wallet, like pictures and ticket stubs. there were some valuable gift certificates and cards though..
the wallet story is still a bit muddled, but apparently somebody (whose identity is unknown to me up to this point) found it. i dunno how mr. eldridge got his hands on the wallet, but i wasn't there so they wanted to lock the wallet up in a cabinet. then someone wanted to take a picture of it and show it to me?? i dunno! i have no idea how so many people can be involved in my wallet story. in the end, it was in christina's hands, who dropped it off just a while ago. then i checked my messages while i was away, and found that people told me all kinds of things - jennifer said "again?" jesse said "someone found it" thomas gave me a link about "what to do when you lose your wallet," but good thing i didn't need it after all. yeesh.. what a busy day...
who is this mysterious person, and how lucky i am that they're not one of those "finders keepers" people! but what's strange is why they would want to take it in the first place. did it fall out of my backpack? did they know it was my backpack? did they want to teach me a lesson for some reason? did they do it as a prank? hmm..... who are you, o wallet-burglar!! ^o^
this was quite a long rant. i am tired. i will only get 3 hours of sleep again cuz i have to do a lotta things in the morning before i have to get to school at 6:45. then come back at around 1 at night, probably will be too tired to go to church again (sigh) and then have CYS in the afternoon. hopefully i won't be late this time and have the conductor say "oh look who decided to show up" and have a million asian violin players' heads turn around and stare at me. hah.
*yawn*
VERY hectic day today. for those of you w/ stebbins, how was your lit papers? i heard that at around 2:55 there were a whole bunch of people running toward her classroom with papers in their hands! hehehe i can just imagine the picture..
slept for a few hours, jocelyn even came to my house to try to wake me up. first she called five times. then my mom saw her at our door and let her in and she woke me up to tell me about band hours and dress. how nice!!! ^_^ so i got to sleep for a few hours...
went to homecoming, performed, then stayed for dance. then stayed for clean-up. then angela gave me a ride home becuz i didn't drive to school becuz i didn't have my license becuz i didn't have my wallet. ah, yes.. that's what made today so interesting... i REALLY thought i lost my wallet this time.. and what's worse was that i had a very big hunch that someone TOOK it - i didn't just misplace it. i had to play vibraphone during the rally, so i dumped my backpack on the floor in some corner of the gym. BIG MISTAKE! by the time the rally ended, i picked up my backpack, which was half open, and tried to look for the rest of my things scattered about the gym floor while sophomores pushed their way around me. ahhh... i didn't realize i had lost my wallet until i had to drive to school to turn in my paper. then... frantic-ness (?) struck! so yes, i posted an away message on aim to see if anyone knew the whereabouts of my wallet.
my mom got SO MAD at me.. and she thought i didn't care.. of course i cared! the first thing that ran through my mind was cash. i knew i didn't have a lotta money in there, so i didn't worry. then, check card. i didn't want to freeze my account until i was SURE my wallet was lost. then, driver's license. that was tricky, cuz my mom won't let me drive w/o a license, which makes sense, but makes everything very very troublesome. it's a good thing i don't keep stuff w/ sentimental value in my wallet, like pictures and ticket stubs. there were some valuable gift certificates and cards though..
the wallet story is still a bit muddled, but apparently somebody (whose identity is unknown to me up to this point) found it. i dunno how mr. eldridge got his hands on the wallet, but i wasn't there so they wanted to lock the wallet up in a cabinet. then someone wanted to take a picture of it and show it to me?? i dunno! i have no idea how so many people can be involved in my wallet story. in the end, it was in christina's hands, who dropped it off just a while ago. then i checked my messages while i was away, and found that people told me all kinds of things - jennifer said "again?" jesse said "someone found it" thomas gave me a link about "what to do when you lose your wallet," but good thing i didn't need it after all. yeesh.. what a busy day...
who is this mysterious person, and how lucky i am that they're not one of those "finders keepers" people! but what's strange is why they would want to take it in the first place. did it fall out of my backpack? did they know it was my backpack? did they want to teach me a lesson for some reason? did they do it as a prank? hmm..... who are you, o wallet-burglar!! ^o^
this was quite a long rant. i am tired. i will only get 3 hours of sleep again cuz i have to do a lotta things in the morning before i have to get to school at 6:45. then come back at around 1 at night, probably will be too tired to go to church again (sigh) and then have CYS in the afternoon. hopefully i won't be late this time and have the conductor say "oh look who decided to show up" and have a million asian violin players' heads turn around and stare at me. hah.
*yawn*
10.24.2002
this is a BAD week... spent a whole hour last night recording a short 5-minute piano thing. ARGHS! i never thought i was a perfectionist but when i KNOW there's a mistake in there, i just can't tolerate the idea of having people listen to that! so it took me such a freakin long time to record the stupid thing. alas, it is done. i am happy and proud. now i just have to make sure everything is sent out before i go to foothill.
Nov. 10 and 17 at 2:30 PM. it's at Flint Center in DeAnza on the 10th, and at San Mateo Center of Performing Arts on the 17th. everyone come!! for FREE tickets and more info, contact shellie. (of course, you can always buy tickets at the door, but it'll cost you 6 or 12 bucks)
and with that, i shall end tonight's lonely blog with something heartwarming. well, only if you read chinese. so i guess it only warms chinese hearts. ^_^
幸福常常就像是貓跟牠的尾巴一樣
當妳一直追求著幸福時
妳會發現自己在原地打轉
唯有妳昂首闊步的往前走
幸福才會一直跟著妳..........
Nov. 10 and 17 at 2:30 PM. it's at Flint Center in DeAnza on the 10th, and at San Mateo Center of Performing Arts on the 17th. everyone come!! for FREE tickets and more info, contact shellie. (of course, you can always buy tickets at the door, but it'll cost you 6 or 12 bucks)
and with that, i shall end tonight's lonely blog with something heartwarming. well, only if you read chinese. so i guess it only warms chinese hearts. ^_^
幸福常常就像是貓跟牠的尾巴一樣
當妳一直追求著幸福時
妳會發現自己在原地打轉
唯有妳昂首闊步的往前走
幸福才會一直跟著妳..........
10.23.2002
10.21.2002
i dunno why i started listening to this CD again... hehe >_^ ahh.. WAY too applicable, it's scary.
他給了她一個吻
然後就害怕這個女人 對他太認真
他傷害過很多人
只因為同時愛很多人 互相平衡
他要讓她心灰意冷
才心安理得找別人 避免一場戰爭
valen hsu - their story
他給了她一個吻
然後就害怕這個女人 對他太認真
他傷害過很多人
只因為同時愛很多人 互相平衡
他要讓她心灰意冷
才心安理得找別人 避免一場戰爭
valen hsu - their story
10.17.2002
eee~~ i'm happy! cuz i found out that i DON"T have to turn in my entire application with my red folder! yay!! that means i have more time to work on my essay..! but blah! i don't know how to write these essays! why am i using so many exclamation marks...
jakovina's recommendation forms are allll due in mr. eldridge's hands by tomorrow. well, technically, today now since it's 1 something am. but anyway.. all these "i have to get it done by tomorrow" things are actually really good for me! i'm getting a lotta work done before the final FINAL deadlines, which is cool. cuz i know i won't do it until i absolutely have to. heh..heh.. like i'm pretty much done w/ my stanford app except for the essay and the optional stuff like auditions, recordings, additional pages, etc. and once you get the first one done, the rest are much easier, so yay!
speaking of auditions, did i mention that i DID get my audition time? it's a good thing, and it's also a bad thing. it's good cuz i got it even though it was way past the deadline. it's bad cuz.. now i have to practice!!!! >_<
sometimes i wonder why i go to so much trouble for a school that will most likely end up rejecting me anyway.. i mean, look at all the other brilliant ppl who applied to stanford and got rejected.. am i committing too much time and effort into the whole application process?? why, it's only one of the MANY important things i will have to do in my life!! and like i was telling taeree today, even though i know how freakishly impossible it is to get into stanford, when i get my rejection letter from them, i'll still be very very sad.. cuz before they tell you the results, you still have hope. you can still say, hey i need to work hard so i get into my top-choice school, right? but once they really do reject you, it's kinda... it's.. it's like you've fought so hard in a battle and still lost..
*sigh*
jakovina's recommendation forms are allll due in mr. eldridge's hands by tomorrow. well, technically, today now since it's 1 something am. but anyway.. all these "i have to get it done by tomorrow" things are actually really good for me! i'm getting a lotta work done before the final FINAL deadlines, which is cool. cuz i know i won't do it until i absolutely have to. heh..heh.. like i'm pretty much done w/ my stanford app except for the essay and the optional stuff like auditions, recordings, additional pages, etc. and once you get the first one done, the rest are much easier, so yay!
speaking of auditions, did i mention that i DID get my audition time? it's a good thing, and it's also a bad thing. it's good cuz i got it even though it was way past the deadline. it's bad cuz.. now i have to practice!!!! >_<
sometimes i wonder why i go to so much trouble for a school that will most likely end up rejecting me anyway.. i mean, look at all the other brilliant ppl who applied to stanford and got rejected.. am i committing too much time and effort into the whole application process?? why, it's only one of the MANY important things i will have to do in my life!! and like i was telling taeree today, even though i know how freakishly impossible it is to get into stanford, when i get my rejection letter from them, i'll still be very very sad.. cuz before they tell you the results, you still have hope. you can still say, hey i need to work hard so i get into my top-choice school, right? but once they really do reject you, it's kinda... it's.. it's like you've fought so hard in a battle and still lost..
*sigh*
10.16.2002
hahaha... i dunno if i should put this one on the blog, but what the heck.. >_^ don't get any weird ideas ppl!
Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz
Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz
10.15.2002
i'm staring at the flashing banner on my blogspot, and i just realized something really cool! the flashy stuff are because there are arrows on the border, and the arrows flash alternately red and white. all the arrows travel counter-clockwise. so when you look at it, it looks like red and white arrows are all traveling counter-clockwise, when in actuality, they're just individual, unmoving arrows switching colors from red to white to red to white and so on! then i tried to make my eyes see that the arrows are actually travelling backwards, like clockwise! and it worked for a while but then my mind started making the arrows go forward again... if you guys see this banner, you should try it. haha talk about going against the flow!!!
hehehe.. to answer your question, yes i'm trying to put off writing my essay.
hehehe.. to answer your question, yes i'm trying to put off writing my essay.
10.14.2002
i hate the fact that i have to put practically everything i did in high school onto four pieces of paper. it's driving me insane. i wish i knew about the college folder thing sooner... and i hate counting the number of hours and weeks i did some activity.. i hate how every single hour i spend during high school is supposed to count. and i hate trying to remember awards that i've won, only to discover that there's only been like, two. and i regret not going to that johns hopkins summer program thing last year. and i wish i knew what to write about for my essay... ahhhhh *hyperventilating*
and i hate how i have to do this for a buncha schools while in the end, only one really counts. wah.
and i hate how i have to do this for a buncha schools while in the end, only one really counts. wah.
