yikes.. dropped below 100.

saw this on someone's profile.. hehe check it out: http://www.cripplingdepression.com/comic.php?id=80

how's my application process...

*shelley falls onto her bed, lies on her stomach*

five minutes later...

*flip*

*stares at ceiling*

hahaha... i don't know why i all of sudden remembered this. but on tuesday during gov, when mr. eldridge passed out the white house packets, i looked at it and exclaimed, "ah! so many words!!" and he stopped walking, looked back at me incredulously, and said, "'so many words?!' i'm a little worried about your being in an ap class if you think it's so many words!" hehehhe.. eldridge is so funny.

stuck in my head...

It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love
You roll me
Control me
Console me
Please hold me
You guide me
Divide me
Into what...

*proudly* i feel like i have achieved a whole new level...! ooh this is so exciting!!

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"You come from the Future. Your soul came from a different time, far in the future. You're just a little bit a head of everyone else and you're constantly wondering what lies ahead."

this thanksgiving is.. different. it's the last one before a long while that i can spend with my mom, because she might not be here anymore after i go to college. if i decide to stay here, that means i would only fly back to taiwan for maybe xmas, but not thanksgiving.. so.. heh. it's strange. i dunno how to explain it.

made a big fuss out of not being able to find my transcript today. funny how when you're under stress, the littlest things can tick you off.

"just a day.. just an ordinary day.. just trying to get by..."

the dizzy spells came back... :(

i don't have my ELC number!!!! >_<

so today when i got bored with math hw, instead of staring blankly at the wall in front of my desk, i decided to make an "early bird xmas wish list." if you read my last entry, i am VERY much in the "holiday spirit" now, thanks to the last CYS rehearsal.. -__-;; i decided to post it up here, and no no not becuz i'm a spoiled brat wishing for a long list of things :D but becuz.. well like i explained to my mom, you don't want money to go to waste on something you don't like... see? i think everyone should do this. and also becuz by posting it on my blog, the list is automatically formatted into pretty blue schemes. hehe. anyway here goes:

Shellie's "early bird" Xmas Wish List
- a nice belt
- that newsies hat (in denim)
- a watch that doesn't detach from itself
- scarf (crazy stripes!!) ^_^
- Barnes & Noble gift certificates (i spend way too much money there)
- See's candy ONLY MOCHA!
- earrings maybe
- CD's (which one..?)
- CAMERA! not digital, but one you can take panaramic w/
- gift certificates in general (haha don't you wish they made those for Collegeboard? that way, you can save so much money on SAT reports! and the people who give it to you can attach a lil card saying, "good luck on your college applications!" hahaha i come up w/ the best business ideas :)
- new Jansport backpack in baby blue (i'm tired of carrying everything on one shoulder)
- new cell phone or cell cover
- i need white Etnies-like shoes...
- Abercrombie button-down pull-over sweater that i was too stingy to buy last time
- TI-89 (i'm getting really annoyed with my TI 83)
- a picture of yourself (i wanna collect more pictures of my friends! ^_^)

ladeeda.. there. haha i sound very greedy don't i? *devilish giggle* but hey, this is only xmas list draft number 1! haha j/k j/k.. ok.. i should go to sleep now. i fell asleep in 3 our of 5 classes today! >_<

CYS was interesting today.. FIRST, i finally got to meet my look-alike from associate orchestra! at the first regular rehearsal of this year, mr. eylar asked me if i had any siblings in associate. i said, "no, why?" and he told me about a girl who looks EXACTLY like me in the french horn section.. so i vowed to check it out, becuz these things have happened in the past and they NEVER look like me. so today, i arrived 10 min. before the associate rehearsal ended (surprisingly early for me), and i took a good look at that girl. and i gasped. she really DID look a lot like me! well, me in glasses.. she didn't know i was looking at her, so i was kinda being stalker-ish. i told someone how weird it was to look at someone who looked exactly like me. and they said, "ever looked in a mirror?" >_< grr..

we started playing xmas music.. it's bad for me, becuz the moment i started playing the sleigh bells, i had a sudden urge to go xmas shopping. and all of a sudden i felt like it was already xmas. a very weird experience. but the atmosphere became all.. jolly and.. giddy all of a sudden. interesting how much music can influence you. but i must not spend any money until.. well, not now.

if i had to be a pea, i'd like to be a green wrinkled one. ^_^

i've been hearing lots and lots about many ppl's parents being very very worried, even paranoid, about their kids' college stuff.. and the annoyance from their kids! it just seems funny becuz one night during dinner, i suddenly had a thought. i asked my mom, "do you know which colleges i'm applying to?" and, in her asian accent, said, "ah.. CO-LAM-BEE-YA.. HA-FORD.. umm.. MIT?" "no! i'm not applying to MIT!" i said. and her explanation for this complete lack of knowledge about my college choices was that, if she didn't know anything about it, i'd be forced to learn it myself. and that way she'd never have to bug me about things like colleges! to this, i shake my head and have invisible sweatdrops down the side of my head...

hours later.. and i'm still thinking about memento.. (don't keep on reading if you haven't watched the movie yet)

what did he mean when he told me to watch memento and "i can't trust him because of his picture?"

agh! i wanna watch that movie AGAIN! charlton, christina, and alex all thought that his wife WAS a diabetic, but that would mean that teddy WASN"T telling lies, that he was indeed who he said he was, and that Leonard was Sammy Jenkins after all, with the diabetic wife that he killed. then he made up the story of how his wife got raped and murdered by a John G. and went on looking for the murderer, making up things to believe in order to have a life and a purpose. but who knows if teddy was telling the truth? although that last scene where he said "you can be my John G." and then copied down his license plate made us believe that teddy wasn't the one who murdered Leonard's wife. see, in the beginning we were all fooled into thinking that this was just a plain detective story, told backwards in chronology. we also thought natalie helped leonard. but if what teddy said was true, then it ISN"T a plain detective story, more like A Beautiful Mind, where the character makes up everything in his life and basically lives in his own fantasy. but how can you believe a guy who might have faked being a cop and manipulated Leonard because of his "condition" into killing some guy and stealing all his money?

the people who used Leonard's condition to control him were scary. that part where Natalie was finally revealed as a backstabber, after she got beaten up by Leonard and he was trying furiously to find a pen and write down what happened, but failed. she had said to him, " we could still be friends... maybe even lovers." that made me shudder but also reminded me of some things. humans are very funny people. even though we don't have leonard's condition, we can sometimes easily forget the things people have said to us in the past and then remain friends, or even lovers. it's a sort of virtue, perhaps? or else we'd all be calculating each other's faults. forgive and forget. at least we don't have "freaky tattoos" all over our bodies reminding us each morning of who we must take revenge on. that must be very very tiring. if i were him, i'd probably never wake up.

there were some plot holes... like, if he can't create new memories and could only remember the things that happened before the incident, then how does he remember to check all the notes he has? or even to remember to take notes? he has so many pockets in his jacket, but there is no way he can remember which pocket is for what. and the various facts tattooed on his body. if you woke up one day not knowing where you are and why you're there, would you look at the tattoo that tells you to murder some guy and follow all of the facts also tattooed on your body? every morning?

"i can't remember to forget you..." interesting quote. wonder what happens after he killed teddy. if he goes back to natalie and becomes her tool for killing people, that would be very very sad.. but would he go back? or would he completely lose meaning in his life? or would he keep on hunting for another John G. like teddy said he would?

*exasperated sigh*

there. new counter. (the old one kept count but became invisible..)

wahhhhhhhhhh!!!!

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You are Zhang Ziyi.
you're free and wild. you like to have fun, whether it's flying in the air,
picking fights, pretending to be a guy, or kicking ass. you like to do it all. you also have an evil side which some
ppl dislike. the only thing you've been really wanting to do is to shut chris tucker's annoying ass up!
as he would say it, "you are one crazy bitch!"

so today i came up with a shellie-term. "academic bulimia." it's where the student engages in "binge studying," meaning studying intensively over hours on end a certain night. then they go through a period of laziness and procrastination, where they wait again until there's a certain test or paper due the next day and binge studies again.

i, unfortunately, am a member of the ABA, the academically bulimic anonymous. hehe.. and hmm.. tomorrow is our math test. yikes..?

watched gilmore girls AND half an hour of smallville today. ah, the advantages to not having band practice. everything reminds me of everything! i never got to find out what happened at the end of smallville though.. that evil guy who kills the teacher becuz his 4.0 was gonna get ruined was kinda scary.. *shudder*

not much has been going on.. no one updates their blogs anymore!! *sad*

currently developing my theory of "the sullied one." updates soon, under ideal conditions.