survey

now you KNOW i'm terribly bored when i do something like this. the good part is, i'm so happy that i'm bored. to spend time on things like this, it's great! ^o^

survey stolen from jaclyn!
FIRSTS
first job: first paying job? lollicup. heh those were the days..
first screen name: shelley508, back when i still used aol
first funeral: the first one i can remember is a pastor from my old church
first pet: probably something boring and that you can't hug like goldfish or something. but for those who know me well, they know i've killed my pet rabbit before. *cackles* little sadistic me..
first piercing/tattoo: ack! the holes in my ears closed up!!!! so now i'm back to being piercing-less. and after all that pain and the money wasted!!! >_<
first credit card: i never had one. i had check cards though.
first kiss: it was in kindergarten. i forgot his name.
first one that mattered: with kafung i guess. while we were fighting for the comb.
first love: kafung.
first enemy: sharon oh. grrrr!!!!! but i guess that's all the past.
first big trip: probably the trip that took me to the U.S. hah. also that was my first time on an airplane.
first concert: now how would i remember something like that? although the first one i really really enjoyed would be coco's.
first musician you remember hearing in your house: i think it was beethoven but i'm really not sure..

LAST
last car ride: whew now this is a long time ago.. i just don't ride in AUTOMOBILES that much. scooters or MRT or bus or bicycles.. oh oh! i know! i rode in a real car during my sister's wedding. :D haha i was so pretty.. and conceited, i know. :P
last kiss: well i've been sick... so....
last library book checked out: some chinese prose book..
last movie watched: watched a lotta movies lately, some good some bad. 21 grams, in the cut, butterfly effect.. out of the theatres: ooh i watched the mona lisa smile!! and freaky friday, which was better than i thought.. some japanese horror films..
last beverage drank: same as jaclyn, i have limitations too. no more caffeine or alcohol for me!! >"< and i'm supposed to drink 6 to 8 glasses of water.. yeah right like i can do that.
last food consumed: sanbei cracker snacks. yummy.
last phone call: to a girl in my chinese group who still has my notes..
last time showered: yesterday.
last CD played: still playing - david tao, soul power live CD
last annoyance: yes jaclyn, diet restriction do suck so very much. but my last annoyance probably had something to do with parking my bike.
last soda drank: maybe coke when i went to mcdonald's last time. don't really drink much soda here.
last ice cream eaten: huh? ice cream??? did i tell you i've been sick? i eat pudding now. XD
last time scolded: my mom, yesterday at the gynecologist's, for not taking good care of my body. bleh x_X
last shirt worn: pajama t-shirt?
last website visited: my, my, jaclyn, economist dot come eh? mine would probably be someone's blog...

NOW
single or taken: i never liked to think of myself as being "taken" by somebody, as if i had no will of my own. so maybe um.. i'll say "occupied" :)
sex: female
birthday: may 8. ooh isn't THAT one coming up close.. *wink*
sign: "taurus and ox, depending what system..." yeah i'll go w/ jaclyn's on that one. and moon at capricorn, ascending scorpio.
siblings: jenny and tina. 28 and 27.
hair colour: it's supposed to be reddish brown darn it! sassoon color-secure...
eye colour: dk brown
shoe size: 6.5 and 34 i think?
height: under 160 cm, that's all i know.

RIGHT NOW, WHAT ARE YOU
wearing: black bebe and ae jeans.
drinking: water. remember that 6-8 glasses?
thinking about: secret! >_^
listening to: david tao turned down low and the humming of the fan..

wow that survey was long.

confused

i was looking up some health info when i found this: confusion.

"Confusion may come on suddenly or gradually over time, depending on the cause. Some confused people may behave aggressively..."

haha

i like girls

girls have a way of making other girls feel better in a way that guys can never do. it's funny because if i was told to list all the things that are considered problems in my life, they would probably be mostly guy-related.

conclusion is, i should talk to girls more. much much more.

:(

sick and sick again.

will someone fill me in on.. things? does everyone hate me now?

i wish i could tell you the story of my life.

things

what am i doing... i don't seem to know anymore. how do you connect the past with the present? how do you cut a worm in half and connect its two halves together again? how do you bring your past life back from the dead and have two different people live in the same body?

i put her to sleep. finally. but she was woken up. in a place where her soul has no body to dwell in. so she comes to haunt me, relentlessly, trying to seep in through the cracks and drive the other one out. i know i long to welcome her, but under the present circumstances, i know i cannot.

but she has no home. half of me is a homeless wanderer.

i woke up, and i wish it was a dream, but it wasn't.
i guess i will never know.
i guess i will always remain the selfish, ignorant person that i am.
i guess i will only know how to receive and never know how to give.
i guess i will never be a complete human being.
i guess ironically, the non-Christian is a better Christian than i will ever be.
i guess i will never know how to love.
i guess i will never know what love is.
i guess i will always be blind to compassion.
i guess i will never be able to know real warmth even when i feel it.

you never see the other side of the moon. but what's worse than that is, the people who DO see the other side sees only that. when i turn to you, you will only be able to see one side. i can't show you the other side, even though i want to. no matter how badly.

why can i never get out of this double life i'm living? i wish i was.. normal. i never thought there would be a day when i wish this wish:

i wish i can be just like everyone else.

sister's wedding

video clip. see it here

good site

here: http://www.donghaeng.net/english/main.htm#

more incoherence

ahhh.. the weather's too beautiful for studying, but i am forcing myself to stay in the library >_<. as a result, i'm neither home nor studying, but blogging. teehee. this darn library's become my second home, how pathetic. blehhhh..

i need to change the blog template. how long has it been since i last changed it?

financial status will affect everything you do and say because it directly affects your reactions to everything you encounter. getting adjusted on a deeper level - not just the climate or language, but beliefs and points of view.

i want to write a book~~~ lalala.. i want it to be cultural and such but much much much better than joy luck club. ew. i hate joy luck club.

i also hate midterms. yucckkkkk

it's so strange,

you know, weddings. even though people all over the world do it with different ceremonies, procedures, expectations and such, every kind of culture has a thing like The Marriage.

i don't think i've ever seen so many relatives and friends ALL TOGETHER in one place at the same time before in my life. also, being a bridesmaid sucks. i think you really have to take the term "bridesmaid" literally - i became the bride's maid for an entire day. and in the case of my sister, i wasn't only her maid, or her servant, i was her SLAVE. hah. ok it wasn't THAT bad i suppose, but i pretty much had to take care of every single one of her needs, from accessorizing to answering her phone calls (including telling rude snacks delivery people directions to the church 10 MINUTES BEFORE THEY ALREADY HAVE TO BE HERE) to looking after the rings to holding the train of her dress to fixing her hair........ x__X

but all that is definitely nothing compared to the amount of work the bride has to do. there is just an INSANE amount of details to arrange and take care of! i don't think i ever want to get married now that i've seen the whole process. people who decide to get married and have weddings must REALLY want to get married if they are willing to go through all that trouble.

the wedding is at a bad time for me though because it is smack dab in the middle of all my midterms. which is why i'm ending this long rambling and going off to sleep.

and one last but very important but terribly belated thing:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!!!!

best wishes from the furthest corner of the hexagon.

yes i'm still alive

as i'm sure you, the reader, is dying to know

oh and for those who don't know yet, my sister is getting married tomorrow lalala~ :D

ureshiiiiiiiii~~

starved

long time no post, and yet i still give you... TEST RESULT. haha.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
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