2.11.2004

round 19

why are human relationships sometimes so difficult to manage? we each bring our own baggage when we meet, and depending on the circumstances, some of us take on other people's baggages, and some of us relieve our burdens. i still have a lot to learn about people in general..

money issues have been bugging me lately as well. having spent the last nine years (and very important years) of my life in wealthy, protected, clean silicon valley, i seem to have been a bit out of touch with the "real world?" yes, monetary comparisons will always exist in life. you can keep running like a rat to try to keep up with the thompsons, or you can be constantly grateful that you have the opportunity to do certain things that are just out of reach without the access to large amounts of money. it's not just the glass half full or half empty question. it's the simple fact that no matter where you stand, there will always be people above and below you. sometimes, it's about more than just how you view your circumstances. it's also about how to handle and manipulate the situation in a way that anyone who stands to try to judge you can be silenced. theoretically, what comes out of their mouth should not affect you. but if you plan to get anywhere in a society which is built on human connections, especially business-wise, you must learn to be harmonious. if it's not an intimate relationship, it should at least be a beneficial (some would say useful or practical) one, yes? and in these cases, some outer appearances and expressions of opinion DO matter. very much.

it's quite scary, but life seems to be composed of endless rounds of a huge competition. so you just keep running.

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