frankly,

i'm a bit disappointed at the results. i thought i invested enough time? enough energy? was i just not passionate enough about it? i don't know.. i kind of feel like i failed at it, and this was the proof, right in front of my eyes.

then again, maybe this failure was exactly what i needed to realize my true motives behind this.. desire. one of these days my pride will get me into some big trouble. i guess it's a good thing this happened.

onto happier thoughts.. good birthday overall! except for the part where we opened the birthday cake box and saw the words "i love you mom." both my mom and i looked like this: -______-;; and then asked my dad why he bought that. and he said, "well i figured that on your birthday you should say 'i love you mom' for all the pains she went through to give birth to you." haha.

yesterday after chinese class some of us did a small-scale celebrating at this restaurant with really good smoked salmon salad. but we didn't have cake, we had french puffs instead. and we sang happy birthday in five different languages! chinese, english, japanese, cantonese, and indonesian. i'm sure we got some strange glances in the restaurant but oh well. and in fellowship on thursday i didn't get my cake!!! because it was a special meeting and i didn't get to see my whole fellowship group. grrRRRR... i shall have my cake and eat it too! >_< (who said that? i know that comes from somewhere...)

i think i will have my hair straightened in the near future. not sure how much i want to spend on it though, there's a big range...

thanks for the card, if you read this. for some strange reason, when i saw it it was as if i half-expected it, even though i had no reason to expect it at all. you didn't forget.. you never forget.

i knew that.

and if tyson sees this, happy birthday!!! :D high fives to the may 8 children. we are born on the best day of the year. :)

and happy mother's day everyone!